I thought about you yesterday,
Even though it hurt.
I decided I'd take a walk
And visit you.
But you were still sleeping,
Just like you were the last time I came.

I decided to wait there.
Even though it was cold out.
I remembered the last time we were together.
At the amusement park just down the street.
I had to wait on you.
Because you enjoyed all the things that frightened me.
The tallest ones were your favorite.
The ones that dropped straight down,
Too fast for my eyes to follow.
And you never made a sound.
I still remember the look on your face,
When I met you at the end.

You looked so happy...

That was almost a month ago.
I haven't seen you since.
The closest I have gotten
Was the phone call last week.
You told me everything.
I'm so sorry that I didn't have enough time
To be with you then.
But I was too far away.

Hundreds of miles kept me from you.

Your heart wasn't broken. I know it wasn't.
It was shattered.
You told me you were giving up.
Leaving love behind.
Because each time you loved,
You got hurt.
I tried to tell you.
That I've been there.
That same hell.
But I'm still here.
I tried to explain that I, too,
Had my heart shattered.
Many times.
I almost gave up.
But you helped me hang on.
And it was my turn to keep you from drowning.

But you slipped.

I can't understand why
You didn't want my help.
You knew that you were closer to me
Than anyone else.
You knew I cared.
Was that not enough?
Was it not enough that you saved me
From myself?
And showed me so many things
That I was blind to.

I loved you, even when we fought.

Maybe not in the way that you loved me.
And I'm sorry for that too.
Maybe if I could have,
Things would have been different.
You wanted your chance.
But you never got it.
Because I knew what would happen.

It's my fault.

I tried to fix it.
I swear I did.
I paid you a visit.
Your house was empty.
I looked in your room.
I found a note on the dresser.
And a picture of us.
Taken at the beach.

You looked so happy...

I could barely read your writing,
In the strange half-light.
It said you were going for a ride.
And that you'd be back late.
Your name was at the bottom.
But it was smudged.

Were you crying?

I knew where I'd find you.
Your favorite place.
Looking out over the world.
You spent a lot of time on those rocks.
The tallest ones were your favorite.
The ones that dropped straight down.
I don't know if you heard me coming.
Maybe the wind was too loud.
When you looked behind you,
Did you see me?
I still remember the look on your face.

You looked so happy...

This was a new ride.
The one you'd been trying to find
The courage to take.
You enjoyed this one.
And it frightened me.
You took a deep breath.

And then you slipped...

There you went.
Too fast for my eyes to follow.
You never made a sound.
Even though we both knew.
I wouldn't be waiting at the end.
This ride was the last.
And there was nothing but air to catch you.