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~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October:

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Waiting At The End

I thought about you yesterday,  Even though it hurt.  I decided I'd take a walk  And visit you.  But you were still sleeping,  Just like you were the last time I came.   
I decided to wait there.  Even though it was cold out.  I remembered the last time we were together.  At the amusement park just down the street.  I had to wait on you.  Because you enjoyed all the things that frightened me.  The tallest ones were your favorite.  The ones that dropped straight down,  Too fast for my eyes to follow.  And you never made a sound.  I still remember the look on y

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A Serpent's SpellPerfect lips  Once soft  Now stained onyx  With your own words.  Words that came so easily to you  Seething thick and smooth  Like molasses  Your sugar-coated language  Spoken fluently  With a forked tongue  And no twinge of guilt.   
Strong hands  You used to build me up so high  Then pull me under.  The ones that held my heart  My soul, my life  For so long.  That were so gentle  But could have easily broken me  If you'd wanted them to.  Why didn't you?  My body should match my heart  So it'll look just right.   
Glea A Serpent's Spell
in Spoken Word on 5/12/08
For YouClose my eyes  And lock the door.  Time for the rain.  Another flood  Hopelessly running through me  Trying vainly to ease  Such permanent pain…  Scars aren’t something  Easily washed away.  It stings  Going through the wound you made  That time didn’t heal  Like it promised to do.  It still hurts.  Sometimes breaks open and bleeds  All over again.  Throbbing with wasted love  Never to be returned  
To myself, or anyone else  For that matter.  Sometimes memories ease the pain  But not tonight.  It’s everywhere. &nb For You
in Spoken Word on 5/12/08
Forever EternalThe air was heavy with rain  And the sweet smell of jasmine  Your favorite.  The faint scent of cinnamon  Candles  Clinging to your skin.  No moon tonight.  Only stars  Shining bright enough  To light your face.  The midnight breeze  
Urging us onward  To passion.   
The early dew  Staining my feet  
With teardrops.  Listening to a quiet song  Voiced in a foreign language  Calm, serene, so unlike  The world outside this place.  Your laugh, your smile, your touch.  Here come the butterflies  
Embrace them.   
A silent ma Forever Eternal
in Spoken Word on 5/10/08
At The End of the WorldThe final westward winds  Swept away every trace  Of the summer past.  Wrapping me in a chilly embrace.  And whispering bitter words  That somehow appeal to me.   
Amaranth   
Of who I am, who I used to be.  All the things that happened  Between then and now.  Softly singing me to sleep  Urging me onward  To the place of nightmares.   
No more tears...  
 
Pushing the huddled masses of fog  Across the ends of the horizon.  Slithering across my skin  And hiding the scars.  Seperating me from the twilight   
I saw no life arou At The End of the World
in Spoken Word on 5/9/08
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Would YouBroken hearts  
and shattered laughters...  what has become of my world?   
I stand before these shattered mirrors  
lost, forgotten, betrayed and afraid-  Afraid of you...  the way you looked at me  
as if you were not allowed to know me.  The way you ignored me  
as if I was a nobody.  
 
My thoughts of you bring pain to my eyes.  My aching, bleeding, swollen eyes  
cry endless rivers of pain.  
 
You made my warm heart  
turn into a frozen stone  
that lies under an endless snowfall.  But that's not all...  Everything I have ever treasured o Would You
by ~MyThoughtsOfUandThem
FailureFailure   
Don’t try to look into me  You can’t  Don’t try to understand me  You can’t   
As gods failed to make a perfect man  You failed to make a perfect me  Try to make me over if you only can  But can you if you cannot see?   
I tear myself apart just to stay conscious  You tear yourself apart to have a machine  But calm down, look carefully and focus  You’ll see a failure and feel the spleen   
Your creation is a failure  Robot doesn’t work  your system has a failure  Can you hear that Mr. Jerk?   
Your perfection has a failure Failure
by ~LeviathanAngel
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Finally Home

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 5, 2008, 7:49 PM
I've been gone for two weeks. But I'm home now.
I really wish I wasn't.
I live with strangers. And I feel so guilty.
I know it's my fault.
A friend of mine isn't doing very good. And it hurts me so see him like this.
My other friends are becoming.......how can I say this?
Strangers..........
Our class took a trip. We had to stay in small groups of four.
I stayed with three of my closest girl friends.
Or so i thought.
I spent most of my time outside their little circle, wondering what I'd done to fall so far. Why didn't I deserve to be with them? Am I not good enough?
I'd get up to go somewhere, but they'd always decline my invitation for them to join me.
But as soon as I'd return, they'd leave to go to the exact same place I was just at.
Why? I didn't think they were hypocrites.
I'm hurting my boyfriend and I don't mean to. We keep fighting. Its killing our relationship. And it's my fault.

I need to get away.
The air is still cold.
I haven't seen the sun in weeks.
I hope I will soon.
Maybe it will heal me.

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I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
And knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

As the years pass by before my face
As wars rage before me
Finding myself in these last days of existence
This parasite inside me I forced it out
In the darkness of the storm
Lies an evil
But it's me.

Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything


Oh Where? Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything

I still remember...


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  • Mood: Winter Downs
  • Listening to: Field of Innocence - Evanescence
  • Reading: The Sweet Far Thing - Libba Bray
  • Watching: Blue Collar Comedy Special
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: Popcorn
  • Drinking: Tea

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 15
  • Current Residence: My Room
  • Interests: Horseback riding, music (listening and making) Writing (duh!) photography, photomanipulation
  • Favourite movie: Disturbia....and the Fair-Haired Child
  • Favourite band or musician: There's so many......Evanescence, My Chemical Romance, Within Temptation, Nightwish
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, Alternative, Metal, Goth
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, or Edgar A. Poe :P
  • Favourite photographer: Marc Adamus
  • Favourite style of art: hmmmm....little of everything
  • Operating System: Stupid PC
  • MP3 player of choice: my ipod
  • Favourite cartoon character: Kenny (gotta love south park)
  • Personal Quote: Never reget something that once made you happy. Because at one time, that was everything you wanted.
  • Tools of the Trade: Pen, Paper, and Microsoft word :D

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~Survivor1:iconSurvivor1: May 8, 2008, 12:21:43 PM Mood: Sadness
Wow - Powerful, beautiful writing. Something or someone must have really made you sad at some point in your life.
I am checking out your other sites.
*Aaron-Leon:iconAaron-Leon: Apr 18, 2008, 4:56:05 PM
Adding my work to a collection?
Perhaps you shoudl start a fan club for me ;p.

Thanks ^_^

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Thary:"How many people have you hurt that badly?"
Me:"Do you count the breaths you take?"
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Jahi:"We're so going to hell for this."
Me:"You are. I'll just get kicked out again for almost taking over."
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Proud to be part of*100ThemesChallenge
*Aaron-Leon:iconAaron-Leon: Apr 12, 2008, 4:14:33 PM
Thanks for the favs on sections 1-6 of Vampires: The Bloody Truth ^_^.

(Yes, I realize it's another account but I've still got to show my appreciation :P)

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Thary:"How many people have you hurt that badly?"
Me:"Do you count the breaths you take?"
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Jahi:"We're so going to hell for this."
Me:"You are. I'll just get kicked out again for almost taking over."
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Proud to be part of*100ThemesChallenge
*Aaron-Leon:iconAaron-Leon: Apr 8, 2008, 7:12:02 PM
Thanks for the fav on Truth Value [link] Like I said, no complaints about you being addicted to my work. ^_^

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Thary:"How many people have you hurt that badly?"
Me:"Do you count the breaths you take?"
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Jahi:"We're so going to hell for this."
Me:"You are. I'll just get kicked out again for almost taking over."
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Proud to be part of*100ThemesChallenge
~goldensun601:icongoldensun601: Mar 17, 2008, 6:45:50 PM
hopefully i am your favorite everything except mistake your not only my fav. person ever your my everything. Love, Crowe

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Oh, can't you see? That for worst or for better, we're better together. Please, jsut come back home. No don't say that you're sorry, and i won't say, I Told You So!
~name--whoop--name:iconname--whoop--name: Mar 8, 2008, 12:16:41 PM
danka por el :+fav:~!

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Click here if you think I’m amazing. [link]
Click here if you don’t [link]

“[a]nd to my son-in-law, John, I leave a meter of good, stout rope with which to hang himself”
*Aaron-Leon:iconAaron-Leon: Mar 7, 2008, 7:38:52 PM Mood: Excited
If you are, you won't hear me complaining ^_^

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Thary:"How many people have you hurt that badly?"
Me:"Do you count the breaths you take?"
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Jahi:"We're so going to hell for this."
Me:"You are. I'll just get kicked out again for almost taking over."
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Proud to be part of*100ThemesChallenge
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Mar 7, 2008, 4:56:46 PM
:clap: i could be called an addict.....^^;
:blackrose:

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Even though I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, it's that !% that keeps me hanging on.
Never regret something that once made you happy, because at one point, that was everything you wanted.
And for the record, he's still my favorite mistake.
~Claije:iconClaije: Mar 6, 2008, 9:20:18 PM
Thanks for the fav! =D

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-- If I could name a country after me... oh wait I already did... CRAP! >=O dang it Scotland, you ruined my fun.
*Aaron-Leon:iconAaron-Leon: Mar 5, 2008, 8:37:07 PM
Even more favs? I feel more special by the day ^_^. Thanks for the newest ones on Breath Again [link] and Innocence = Ignorance [link] It's much appreciated ^_^.

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Thary:"How many people have you hurt that badly?"
Me:"Do you count the breaths you take?"
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Jahi:"We're so going to hell for this."
Me:"You are. I'll just get kicked out again for almost taking over."
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Proud to be part of*100ThemesChallenge
~name--whoop--name:iconname--whoop--name: Mar 4, 2008, 8:38:39 AM
yey~! another~!

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Click here if you think I’m amazing. [link]
Click here if you don’t [link]

“[a]nd to my son-in-law, John, I leave a meter of good, stout rope with which to hang himself”
*vonderwall:iconvonderwall: Mar 3, 2008, 1:15:55 AM
Thank you very much for the :+fav: in my poem. It's appreciated. :bow:

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All in all it´s all just bricks in the wall.
~AestheticParadise:iconAestheticParadise: Mar 2, 2008, 7:30:14 PM
:blowkiss:

Thank you for the :+fav: on Candle! :hug:

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Smiling is a symptom of happiness and can be faked. Don't assume that everybody who smiles is happy.

"Have you guys at the Secret Service ever thought of jumping in front of the president's diet?" - Abby
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Mar 2, 2008, 6:10:44 PM
hmmmmm........maybe i will :P
:blackrose:

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Even though I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, it's that !% that keeps me hanging on.
Never regret something that once made you happy, because at one point, that was everything you wanted.
And for the record, he's still my favorite mistake.
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Mar 2, 2008, 5:37:48 PM
:glomp: You've got my motivation, if that counts :D Personally, from what I've seen in your piece Confidence, you and i have weathered some of the same storms. I know how it is when no matter how hard you work, or how hard you try, people just kind of dismiss everything you've done, everything you are. And that can really hurt if you put your heart and soul into things the way i do. When all else fails, you've got fellow artists and writers here who will never stop supporting you! :hug:
:blackrose:

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Even though I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, it's that !% that keeps me hanging on.
Never regret something that once made you happy, because at one point, that was everything you wanted.
And for the record, he's still my favorite mistake.
~Libbu-chan:iconLibbu-chan: Mar 1, 2008, 12:54:39 PM
I don't even have that! =]

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I am outside and I am waiting for the sun, with my wide eyes I've seen worlds that don't belong. My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize; tell me why we live like this.

Keep me safe inside, your arms like towers. Tower over me.
~name--whoop--name:iconname--whoop--name: Mar 1, 2008, 11:04:55 AM
Thanks for the fav~!

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Don’t click on the [link] ! You might learn something [[the shame]]

And how doth the wise man die even as the fool!
!jessicamadison:iconjessicamadison: Mar 1, 2008, 5:27:31 AM
Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Feb 28, 2008, 8:35:22 PM
no problem!! :hug: we all need a little support sometimes, just to keep us motivated. cause sometimes motivation is all we've got.
:blackrose:

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Even though I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, it's that !% that keeps me hanging on.
Never regret something that once made you happy, because at one point, that was everything you wanted.
And for the record, he's still my favorite mistake.
~Libbu-chan:iconLibbu-chan: Feb 28, 2008, 9:34:34 AM
Thanks very much for all the favourites.
It's nice to be noticed once in a while. =]

Hope you have a wonderful day. :heart:

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I am outside and I am waiting for the sun, with my wide eyes I've seen worlds that don't belong. My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize; tell me why we live like this.

Keep me safe inside, your arms like towers. Tower over me.
~frauhauf:iconfrauhauf: Feb 27, 2008, 8:34:05 AM
thank you so much for favouriting kavi!

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do you know me?
you probably should.
~LeviathanAngel:iconLeviathanAngel: Feb 24, 2008, 11:52:16 PM
thank you very much for the fav... :hug:

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introverted melancholic angel or the reaver,
I - everlasting dreamer
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Feb 24, 2008, 4:28:30 PM
you're very welcome!

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Even though I'm 99% sure he doesn't like me, it's that !% that keeps me hanging on.
Never regret something that once made you happy, because at one point, that was everything you wanted.
And for the record, he's still my favoritemistake.
*vonderwall:iconvonderwall: Feb 24, 2008, 2:17:21 PM
Thank you so much for the fav, it is appreciated! :rose:

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All in all it´s all just bricks in the wall.
~Voice-of-October:iconVoice-of-October: Feb 23, 2008, 2:08:39 PM
You're very welcome. Its nice to be able to read the work of someone who see,s to see the world in the same way i do. :hug:
:blackrose:

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Insist on yourself. NEVER IMITATE. Imitating gets you nowhere. For you can only go so far being someone else.

Thanks To ~Falln-Avatars for my Avatar!
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